Stop This Train

You know... out of the list of qualities I like to think I possess as a person, being honest is one of the most important ones to me. And in the name of being a good blogger, I want to write what I know and bare my soul fearlessly. If I'm being completely honest with you, lately I've been dealing with this whole growing up thing that I didn't know I had not dealt with: I've been mourning the loss of my childhood. Don't get me wrong, I'm not AT ALL unhappy with my current life. In fact, it's better than it's EVER been. But I suppose there's just some things we all deal with in this progression that is life, and growing up is simply one of those things. I'm finding myself clinging to the things that bring back that childhood feeling for me: watching The Lion King, playing Nintendo, a familiar song that I loved as a kid, anything really that takes me back to a time and place. You know that feeling.... that nostalgic feeling that for a moment allows you to forget that you are an adult with the responsibilities to match your age.

Stop This Train is a song by John Mayer that I've always admired as a songwriter. It's undoubtedly brilliant lyrically and his melodies are always just as brilliant as his writing. Until this past week, I never appreciated it the way I do now though. I've listened to it a hundred times before but this time it reduced me to tears. It says simply how I feel: so scared of getting older, I'm only good at being young. The thing that frightens me so much about getting older is that everyone else is getting older too and there's nothing I can do about it. If you've never heard this song, take a listen. Here's to clinging to those memories and allowing them to encourage me to continue making more. Tomorrow, today will simply be yesterday and I want yesterday to always be worth redesiring.